Human Nature – AKA why Tracy won’t ever be all the way healthy

This morning I was reading one of those “sponsored” posts on Facebook. The Seven foods you should stop eating immediately to avoid cancer, or something like that. These days if you put the word Cancer in a post I will read it.  I usually read these articles with a very healthy dose of skepticism. If all of these articles were correct, there would be no cancer. We could cure all cancers by eating fruit and gargling with coconut oil while taking handfuls of OTC medicines that the FDA just doesn’t want us to know cure cancer.

While reading this article I found myself nodding as I went down the list. No canned food, yup that makes sense. Too many things possible to be in the can itself. No GMO’s. Yup that makes perfect sense too, if you are modifying the genes of the food who is to say that it’s not modifying your genes right back. No Beef Jerky. Yup – that’s an easy one, I am a vegetarian. No potato chips.  Yup, wait..what? NO! See you know the article is a bunch of bullshit now! Because I like potato chips. 🙂

Human nature is so odd. We’re willing to believe and follow all of the easy things.



No 10,000 steps for me today! I have such a lump in my calf muscle! I do not know what I did but it is quite painful and when I tried walking on the treadmill it just kept getting worse until it started shooting all the way up into my pelvis. It almost feels like a sciatic nerve if your sciatic nerve went all the way down to your calf.

I have a reflexology session scheduled next Tuesday through The Victory Center. I wish it was today. I will also try Yoga there next Monday morning. There is a Wednesday evening support group that I will try to join sometimes.

hmmm, Yoga. Maybe I’ll try some downward facing dog and hip openers to pull out that calf lump.

Or maybe I’ll just sit here and whine about it and not do anything.

Yeah…that’s what I’ll do!




What do 80’s TV & Tracys Cancer have in common?

Remember the big hoopla back in 1986 when Patrick Duffy had left Dallas and then he wanted to come back but since they had killed him off they couldn’t really just bring him back..or could they….. Yup – they did, they just dropped him naked in a shower and then his wife Pam said, Oh wouldn’t believe the crazy dream I just had, and they wiped out the whole previous season and just started again from where they left off the season before.

Well, todays oncology appointment was kind of like that. We’re just going to do a reset and pretend the last six months didn’t happen and start over with where we were in September. The chemo has stopped working and all of my tumors (still the same old ones, no new ones) are back to the size they were before we started chemo. Almost exactly.


So, we’ll try some new approaches now. Next week I will go get another biopsy with some additional testing done. My doctor wants to confirm that it is in fact HPV negative because if it is HPV positive I have a lot more options. He will also have a sample sent to Foundation One. If there are any specific mutations in it that can be pinpointed then we may also be able to pinpoint the specific medicine that will work best. One we have all of the information we will also start looking again for Clinical Trials. While they are in there doing the biopsy they will also do an ablation of the largest tumor. Mights as well get it out of there at this point. As long as the small tumors are still in there we have something to use as markers to see what treatments are working, or not. If no alternate treatments are indicated, and no applicable clinical trials found I will go back to chemo but with a different med. It will be Cisplatin, which is the standard cervical cancer chemo drug, weekly.

I got home and felt like a big blob. I sat on the couch and drank a cup of coffee while reading a book and eating a cookie. I was wrapped up in my electric blanket getting warm and toasty.
I decided I better go walk on the treadmill for a few minutes to loosen up my muscles, warm me up, and avoid any feelings of embarrassment when I saw my fitbit stats later. I just added Donna to my friends list and didn’t want her to see me on the first day with 2000 steps.
I got on the treadmill feeling defeated. I walked for a mile and a half at a very slow speed with a decent incline. At minute 35 or so I started thinking of getting stronger again and feeling better. At minute 45 I felt energized and invigorated and ready to take on the world.

Do not underestimate the power of movement. Just sitting on the couch feeling sorry for yourself doesn’t help you.