I am afraid I have hit the point of just fed up. I am going downhill again. My lungs ar tight and ccassionally wheezy and sometimes it hurts when I cough. I can’t believe I am saying this, but I am looking forward to next tuesday when they pop a camera in there so hopefully I will be able to find out definitively what is going on.
I had my CT scan yesterday and of course grabbed a copy, however I am having trouble making sense of this one. I don’t know wwhy but it just isn’t as clear as previous ones. To me it looks like all of the stuff in my lungs is much bigger, but it looks less dense, more whispy. Now it looks like the part that we will assume is infection is wrapping down around the ablated/maybe active tumor. I dunno. I think I just need to go to school and learn how to read them properly.
I had lumch with Michelle – yoga teaching, personal trainer, counselor, and Becca – new mommy, ex-workout partner, child rescuer and that was lovely. We have lunch about every four months and I spend at least 75% of the time laughing. That made me feel ever so much better. Then one of my heroes – Ken Leslie – founder of veteransmatter.org and 1Matters.org came in and gave me a hug and rubbed my head. He is an excellent hugger. Talk about being surrounded by altruistic vibe.
To finish off the evening I worked out and I was SO LAME! I am quickly losing my endurance again. STUPID PROBABLY AN INFECTION! My workout partner was Mike and he is really really strong. I felt a little bad because we had stations that involved both of us working together. That doesn’t happen often and I was not a very good balance with him. Luckily he is also a very nice guy and did not seem to resent having to back off a little bit. He is a good guy.
I did an hours worth of all hip yoga on Tuesday night, my first time with my neighbor as yoga teacher. My hips feel so much more open! I with I had the self discipline to do it at home.
I want to go the art museum during the day soon. I wonder if my daughter would like to go with me. Maybe week after next.
I think it is a two cup of coffee kind of day.