Cleaning up

Things you see in an email when you work for a global company versus a US only company.

“located in South Sudan has been stolen. It was disconnected due to rebel activity in the area before Christmas.”

I can’t imagine living in a place where you have to worry about rebel activity. It makes me a little sad to think that there are people just like me trying to live their lives just like mine and they have to worry about such things.

Stupid algorithm for targeted advertising. I’m on a vegetarian recipe site and they send me a link for Sausage.



I was emailing with a co-worker who has stage four cancer. He said all of my summer plans sound like a bucket list and that he should do that. I don’t like the term bucket list. I did not sit down and make a list of things to do before I die. What I did do is stop using the word “later”. I spent many years waiting for things. Waiting for the right time to do things. Waiting for that certain change to happen that would allow me to start doing something else, getting strong, taking vacations, visiting random places. Now, when something pops into my head like, ooo…look there are places close to me where I can go skydive! I go make a reservation. Or when I can choose to sit home when I don’t feel good and watch tv or go workout and get all sweaty and laugh, I go workout.

I learned my lesson about the great irony mistress of life is just waiting to pull the rug out from underneath me that I just can’t imagine not doing what I want to do, now. Not later. It’s not always about catastrophic illness or death. Other things in your life can get in your way, so why risk ¬†putting off making those choices before someone or something else takes away your options. This is actually something I think about a lot, but not for me. I watch people around me and I just want to run up to them and shake them and wake them up to what they’re missing. But you can’t. You can only do what’s best for you and hope for those you care about.

When I go back and reread these posts in a few years I would like to remind myself that at this period of my life I am currently playing with the dosage of one of meds so I am chemically unbalanced and my mood and writing reflects that!




2 thoughts on “Cleaning up

  1. I guess they thought Kosher was the same thing as being a vegetarian. Stupid ads.

    I see things like your first few paragraphs and it is quite a wake up call. It is good to be reminded that I am really quite fortunate just because I happened to be born here.

    Haha – you didn’t sound altered – if anything you sounded very clear about living life right now, which we all should aspire to do.