I will occasionally type a word into google and then do an image search. Today I typed in “Anxiety”. I thought the images that were returned were really interesting. Anxiety looks like different things to different people.
For today I chose this one:
I had a good long weekend with my daughter. We enjoyed the no pressure’ness of it. Now I am unfortunately back to the reality of this week. Not that I ever really escape the reality of all of it. Little things all weekend were always reminding me. Shopping all day on Saturday made me fingers and hands hurt so very much. My daughter was lovely with helping me do important things that I couldn’t face, like opening the wine. 🙂
I have been extra tired the last couple of weeks, probably from the medicine dosage experimentation, but then the last week or so I’ve had a new and worrisome issue. I have developed night sweats. Now, this is a thing with cancer. It’s actually one of the early symptoms. But what does it mean that it’s starting now? Does that mean my tumors are suddenly growing? Have I developed new tumors? I really hate that I go to a negative thought about it. I think if I wasn’t so tired I would be better at the positive.
This is also of course chemo week. So I have to start with the getting ready for that.
I think I will stop typing now. My moroseness is even bringing me down AND IT HURTS MY FINGERS! SUCK!