Back in 2011 when I blogged during my cancer surgery and then radiation and chemo it I felt like I was online all the time talking. I wondered if people thought I was crazy for the constant blogging and talking about my daily trips to the hospital for radiation and then long days of chemo when my sister and I would hang out together. I felt like I was perhaps oversharing and it was just daily repetition of the same few things. In July (anniversary of diagnoses) of this year I went back and re-read all of my blogs from that time. I found there were actually few real blogs. I was blogging more like once a week than once a day. While I shared the new experience of it I did not really talk too much about the daily emotions or physical issues. I just said – hey chemo sucks – can’t eat. Early in the cancer saga I wrote private blogs with more emotional reactions in them and then made them public after a time. I was always cognizant of the fact that my family could read them and I didn’t want to make them any sadder than they already were.
I am determined to try and write more openly about my thoughts and emotions this time. If not for anyone else but me. I know that it’s good to get that stuff out, and it’s good to have a record to be able to go back later. I am lucky because I have people in my life that I can say the bad stuff out loud to. They don’t judge and they don’t try to “cheer me up”. They understand. I didn’t want anyone to think I was sitting at home wallowing in misery and never able to spew, it’s simply not the case.
So, I would expect more blogging.
I think. 🙂