It’s not you…it’s me.

Somedays I start to think it must just be me. Doctors must be just nuts. Sorry to my doctor friends, but there you go.


Somehow yesterday I hurt my back. I don’t know. I did have a little slip (not on the floor – just the bottle shifted unexpectedly) when I was changing the bottled water, and I did have physical therapy, and I did work out..One or all of those things hurt me. I must have woken up every 30 minutes making sad little sounds. I am frequently in pain, but almost never because I hurt myself!

I am still not over whatever it was making me sick last week, and then chemo so I really have no idea if this shot is working or not because it’s not a fair trial yet. I am SO SO SO SO SO tired of being sick, I can’t even tell you. It was so hard to breathe last night when I was working out, then today the Infectious Disease Dr’s office called and asked me to make a follow up appointment for TWO WEEKS because that’s how long we’re going to wait to see what the results from the culture are. Now I am really confused about what the pulmonologist wants to see me about. Bastards.

I finally got my new hearing aid today! It fits a lot better than my old one. The technology has changed in five years they tell me and the sounds should be even better. I like the bluetooth functionality but it seems to drop quite a bit. When it disconnects it doesn’t re-connect with out me restarting my phone. It could be my phone. It is an older phone that my wonderful son in law gave me. When it’s working – the phone feeds directly into the hearing aid. Music, phone calls, notifications – everything. Lovely. Of course, I don’t always have my phone within bluetooth range so once the novelty wears off I probably won’t use it much. It’s just a fun option.

Went shopping for new shorts yesterday because my only pair were sliding off during PT. Grabbed a pair in my new size 6 and put them on and just stared for like five minutes. They were quite a bit too big. Finally went and grabbed a size 4 and they are perfect. Not even a little bit tight. That’s crazy. I think it has a lot to do with the cut, but still! Think what I could do if I were actually healthy. 🙂

I am going to start working in May. Not much. Only a few hours a week from home. We’ll see how that goes. It’s funny to think that not much more than a year ago I was working a lot and well and now I have trouble committing to a few hours a week. The problem is consistency. I have good hours almost every day. I just don’t know when they will be, or if they will be. And if I only have four good strong hours in a day, I have to use them wisely!

Okay – enough of the daily whine.





8 thoughts on “It’s not you…it’s me.

  1. Brads question was my question.

    Fantastic about size 4. I probably wore size 4 when I was 9 😀

    Loving you my dear workhorse!!

    1. You’re running a call center? Or maybe running a garden? Or maybe running a place where you get your hair dyed?

        1. Nice! Are you more on the administrative side? Or is it something where you can hop in the call queue from home whenever you get those good hours?

  2. Good luck with the new job.

    I am sorry about your back. When I start to think about whining, I think how bad it must be for you, it puts things into perspective.

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