Life through Rose Colored Glasses even when they are speckled with vomit
» In one of the Audio books that I was listening to over the last week a Sports Medicine Doctor turned Trainer was doing some sort of High Tech measurement of muscle fatigue. One of the things he found that surprised him was a huge percentage ( Sorry, I can’t remember the details) of his athletes were training to their limits, telling him they could not go on, yet when he used his fancy equipment their muscles were not even close to the point of fatigue, of really not being able to go on. Their minds thought their bodies were tired, but they weren’t even close.
I think this is probably why the group considered “elite” athletes are so amazing. They are able to turn off that signal in their brain.
» During the last two months of dealing with the cancer growing again and making a plan, and following through with the plan I have once again gotten to work with and meet more people in the healthcare industry and people dealing with a cancer diagnosis for themselves or someone close to them. I have had many discussions about life and death and side effects. Here is my 2nd all time favorite piece of advice. Be thankful for every treatment, every test, every drug that makes you sick, every needle that pokes a hole, every unthoughtof except by crazy ass radiologists way of doing radiation that hurts and causes you bizarre damage inside.
There are people who are miserable. They get their diagnosis and from the first utterance of the word cancer they start remembering every story from every miserable person they have ever met or run across or read about who had a terrible time. Who threw up every morning, and lost all their hair in the first ten minutes and whose fingers and toes fell off from gangrene from neuropathy. They dread the word chemotherapy knowing that every drop that goes in their body is a poison that is going to make them sick. Sicker than anyone else has ever been, anywhere.
You know what, maybe it will. But at the same time, that drug is probably THE best chance for your survival. Embrace every second of it. Know that with every zap of that radiation machine your cancer cells are being stopped. Will it make you fatigued and sick, and whiny? YUP! But that will mostly pass. And if it buys you more time to do the things you love in this life? Well Worth the pain.
♥ Now – BIG OLD DISCLAIMER – this is not the same as the people who are fighting and fighting and have done all of the stuff and it just doesn’t work. Sometimes the right treatment just can’t be found. And when your quality of life starts diminishing so fast that it’s actually exacerbating the sickness, it may be time to stop. That is not the same and I give all of you my respect, and my tears (truly, as I type this) because you have the strength of 1000 of the people who embrace the misery and just won’t fight.
» So maybe there are a different group of Elite Patients. We (yeah, that’s right, I said WE) assume that everything will work. We know the statistics, we plan a little for the worse, but we assume that every drug is going in and doing the job it’s supposed to do! Our bodies are sick, but our brains know that we can keep going, we can do more. It doesn’t mean we don’t have low days, but it means we are grateful and thankful for every doctor, nurse, tech and caregiver who hurts us in the name of healing. And I personally am also so grateful for the people who see me at my worst and just lift me up.
» I don’t think my attitude will heal me, but I do think it will make my time here no matter how long or short an amazing and wonderful experience.