because it probably means you are feeling sorry for yourself.
It seems like I have been spending years now trying to improve myself. To be stronger and healthier and an all around better person. I just do not seem to b making any headway though. My progress is so minimal that even the smallest thing sets me back to where I was or even further back. It is frustrating.
I am sure I will be peppier tomorrow. On the other hand, Monday is liquid diet only day in preparation for Tuesday colonoscopy so any happy joyfullness will be hidden under a bushel of bitter bitching for 36 hours.
I dreamed that I moved into a house and there were all these little wooden shelf and drawer things, tiny little wood things and I found all sorts of things including money. It is the second time I have dreamed of those little wooden things. I also dreamed I took an elevator to the top floor of a building and the ceiling was a huge aquarium and it gave me a terrible panic attack when the blue whale swam over me!