Had a rough night. For some reason I had a bunch of things flare up when I went to bed. Neuropathy, itchy arms, coughing, stuffy sinuses all BAM. Which of course tells me everything is somehow related. Wish I could figure it out. Nothing I tried helped. Today I feel better except the neuroathy is very bad. I just took more meds so I am hoping by the time I am done typing it will stop hurting my fingertips. 🙂
Also hurt myself working out last night! I was doing side plank with my feet on a step and as soon as I went up I twisted and fell and I have pulled or bruised something on my rib. Silly.
BUT that’s not why I’ve called you all here. This morning Tami shared a link to a blog on Facebook. It was about a family. Mom, dad and baby I think. And the Mom has some type of cancer. I don’t know much, just read this one entry about how they had decided no more chemo because the chemo they just did after surgery didn’t help and her cancer was progressing aggressively. I would no more tell someone that their decision is wrong to stop chemo than I would go ahead and smack the people who tell me I should stop chemo. You know, just for awhile to let the side effects clear up. Yes, people do tell me that. Regardless of what or how they say it this is what I hear. “Your chemo may be saving your life but your side effects are inconvenient so go ahead and stop now. You probably won’t die but I am willing to take that chance.” I understand that this is probably not what they mean, but it’s what I hear.
When I read the blog this morning my first thought was OH NO! This woman had chemo for five months and then they checked her cancer. This is pretty standard protocol for someone who has just been diagnosed and they are trying standard treatment. My inside wants to just scream out at them – CALL ANOTHER DOCTOR! Don’t give up yet. You have a beautiful family. 🙁 But like I said, I don’t know the whole story. Maybe this isn’t really what’s going on. This line of thought led me to another. In the small part of the blog that I read God and religion is discussed a lot. It made me wonder…yes, this is finally the reason I started typing this blog…do people who have strong beliefs in God and Heaven and an afterlife give up on treatment faster? When it starts getting difficult is it easier for them to say it’s okay there is something better waiting for me, or my spouse, or my child, on the other side?
Oddly last night I had a dream that involved ghosts and one of the times I woke up I suddenly thought, oh that proves it! There is an afterlife. I wish I could remember more.