I was curious about how the radiologist knew from my CT Scan that I had emphysema instead of asthma. So I googled! The images you see below are not from Google, they are my actual CTs. Apparently with emphysema you get inflamed sections that create little pockets of air that cannot be exhaled.
This first one shows what I think are my little pockets of air – circled in green. I think some of the other larger white spots may also be trapped air. The purple circles are not quite so innocuous. Those are my tumors. I’ve heard other people talk about naming their tumors. I will not be doing that. I hope they won’t be around long enough for me to decide that it is a good idea to give them that kind of personality or power.
On this one you can also see my lung nodule – circled in red. That is the one that at first they thought was cancer but the general consensus now seems to be that it’s just a weird nodule. Not a big surprise that someone would not be the norm on me or in me.
It’s been weird having this space of time not really doing anything but taking care of business before I start treatment. Last time everything happened so fast. So far no one has been able to find any clinical trials for me so that’s kind of a bummer. I have read them until my eyes blur but no one wants me. Everyone is very busy trying to cure cervical cancer with HPV positive patients, and a lot of Head & Neck cancers. I wonder if those are mostly smoking related?
I will have to get a port implanted again, my veins are trashed and no one wants chemo in trashed veins. That was very painful for a couple of days so expect a cranky post or two when that happens.
What do you think is your worst personality trait? I have been pondering the concept of being honest with ones self versus never really seeing your own faults today. You know honesty in speech is very important to me. I try not to say insincere things and that can occasionally make me seem impolite or downright mean if I am forced to be in a room with people I don’t actually like. But if I say to you “how are you?” I actually am asking and listening to your answer.