Timing is Everything

The reason I do not have any dramatic people in my life is because my life provides all of the drama I need.

Had my quarterly oncology CT last week. Usually I see my oncologist within days of this so we can see the results. Because of weird scheduling and rescheduling today I had an appointment with my infectious disease doctor, whom I adore, who also gets copies of the results. When he walked in the room I said, “just in case there is anything bad on the report I need to tell you that I have not seen it yet, or my oncologist yet” His whole body went sad.

It’s okay, I promise, or I would not be blogging about it now. My family gets really mad if they think I blogged about bad news before actually telling them.

It is just another report where another new radiologist said my lump of scar tissue (they do not know if it is scar tissue from a scan) has grown. Now to be fair, it has grown by a lot. But my wonderful ID doctor pulled up my CT, I always bring a copy now, and we looked at it together. We think it is just scar tissue moving around. It looks like it is now much wider, but it is also much thinner. Hopefully just a result of the months I did not run and it got thick again, and then started running again and stretched it back out in a different formation. But as much as I logically know this, and there are no other new spots, or randomness going on, it is still one of those things that sits in your brain and sparks. It’s the constant ambiguousness of my medical life that drives me crazy.

On Thursday I have to make sure my oncologist agrees with me and does not stop my chemo. At worst I will accept a PET scan to get a clearer idea.

Oh, I need to get screen shots of my CT because as he was closing it my doctor said, “something going on with your hips”. Nothing has shown up on previous X-rays so I am curious what he saw. If I get screen shots I will give a yell out for all my medical people on FB to look! I am such a weirdo.

I wonder if I cyst on my kidney would make me feel like I had to urinate more than I really do?

AND they shot me in the arm! Flu Shot





8 thoughts on “Timing is Everything

  1. That’s like a season finale where they weren’t sure they were getting another season. So they ended it dramatically with the scar tissue growth, but in the new season you pull out your scan and it’s resolved in the first episode.

  2. Well, I am looking forward to Thursday then. What time is your appointment.

    So do you know you have a cyst or you are peeing a lot more and that is what you are attributing it to?

    My shrink thinks you sound amazing. You may have come up in my session today. 🙂

    1. haha, tell your shrink I said HI!!
      Yes, I do have what the radiologist thinks is a cyst, and yes, I frequently feel like I have to pee, without actually having too! It’s very aggravating.
      appt is at 1:45. I assume I will spend the appointment making my doctor feel better. 🙂

  3. Hopefully everything with the scar tissue is just what you think, some change due to your workouts and time off. Moreover, I hope that the possible cyst and the “something going on with your hips” is also nothing new or serious.

    You have been an inspiration to me for quite a while now, and I know that you will pull through all of this. You are strong, determined and unwilling to give up the fight, just like me (though lately I’m not feeling so strong).

    I’ll be thinking about and praying for you today and will be looking for an update on your blog this afternoon.

    1. Thanks! It’ll be fine.
      One of he weird things with so many CTs is how aware you become of every single thing inside your body! I don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing.
      I am sorry you aren’t feeling great. The start of a chemo round is no fun, especially after two weeks of multiple vacation antics. 🙂