The reason I do not have any dramatic people in my life is because my life provides all of the drama I need.
Had my quarterly oncology CT last week. Usually I see my oncologist within days of this so we can see the results. Because of weird scheduling and rescheduling today I had an appointment with my infectious disease doctor, whom I adore, who also gets copies of the results. When he walked in the room I said, “just in case there is anything bad on the report I need to tell you that I have not seen it yet, or my oncologist yet” His whole body went sad.
It’s okay, I promise, or I would not be blogging about it now. My family gets really mad if they think I blogged about bad news before actually telling them.
It is just another report where another new radiologist said my lump of scar tissue (they do not know if it is scar tissue from a scan) has grown. Now to be fair, it has grown by a lot. But my wonderful ID doctor pulled up my CT, I always bring a copy now, and we looked at it together. We think it is just scar tissue moving around. It looks like it is now much wider, but it is also much thinner. Hopefully just a result of the months I did not run and it got thick again, and then started running again and stretched it back out in a different formation. But as much as I logically know this, and there are no other new spots, or randomness going on, it is still one of those things that sits in your brain and sparks. It’s the constant ambiguousness of my medical life that drives me crazy.
On Thursday I have to make sure my oncologist agrees with me and does not stop my chemo. At worst I will accept a PET scan to get a clearer idea.
Oh, I need to get screen shots of my CT because as he was closing it my doctor said, “something going on with your hips”. Nothing has shown up on previous X-rays so I am curious what he saw. If I get screen shots I will give a yell out for all my medical people on FB to look! I am such a weirdo.
I wonder if I cyst on my kidney would make me feel like I had to urinate more than I really do?
AND they shot me in the arm! Flu Shot