I’m not myself this week. My allergies are kicking my energy level way down. I’ve stopped my morning exercises, which also drops my energy down. I have an unable to be bitched about in public situation that is making me angry. I had a small adventure planned for July (girls weekend!) which has been postponed, so I am disappointed. I have a swollen spot on my arm which I think is probably lymphedema in my arm now, which you can just guess how much that pisses me off.
I got over the anger of thyroid disease in about 30 seconds, the kidney disease, eh that just amused me. The cancer, that took about a week to get over the anger part. Inoperable bone spurs on the bottom of foot to walk on for the rest of my life? Just a song reminder from Godspell. Asthma? Well that was almost expected, but over a year since I was told about the leg lymphedema and it still makes me angry when I think about it!
I go to the doctor next week for the asthma follow-up and I’ll have her check my new arm growth. I also need to have her check my NOSE! It is still really sore to the touch and there is a little nodule on the top. I’m wondering if I actually chipped it a little last month.
So basically I am angry. I really need to get back to hard exercise every day. I didn’t realize how much of a stress release that was until I stopped. I’ve been walking at night at least a mile (except last night ) and that helps but it’s not the same as hair wringing sweaty exercise. I do highly recommend it for a sweet sweet endorphin boost. It’s one of the things in my life that is completely about me and for me. My exercising does not benefit anyone but me.
I hope it’s a good weekend. Next weekend is SKYDIVING! I swear soon I’ll be back to my pollyanna joyfulness. Just needing to vent these days.
I will now use the rest of my lunch to run to the store because I FORGOT MY LUNCH!
And a random picture from my archives to go with the random post.