Sometimes I don’t post negative things because I get overwhelmed by how much support I get online. Is that weird?
Sometimes when I post something that I think is funny about my health or craziness I get too many sad faces when what I was expecting is Laughing faces and it makes me feel bad. I don’t want people to think I am sitting around feeling sorry for myself (even when I am).
Today you can feel semi-bad for me. Feeling quite blah this morning. I noticed something very unpleasant yesterday.
When I went to chemo yesterday I started feeling nauseated while I was still in the parking lot. I knew I was starting to have reactions when I was sitting in the chair to the smells but now it’s starting even earlier. Just thinking about it right now, it makes me feel quite disgusting. I can feel the smells in the back of my throat. That’s not cool at all. I have been going to this office for four and a half years. That’s a really long time to go this often. I’m not sure what the solution is but I need to find a way to break my personal cycle. Maybe something smelly like lavender to start.
Okay – let’s call that chest talk since it’s my port
Onto eye talk!
Cataract surgery next week! I don’t know why I am so excited, though I now have plans for that evening. I bet I will look terrible!!!
I really would like to find a neurotologist. Mine left the practice and it seems like there was only one in the area. I am having all sorts of vestibular issues, probably from a medicine change, and I don’t have anyone to talk to about it. I don’t want to go back on the old medicine, even though it helped because I had to take it everyday and I want to know if there is some type of rescue med that I can take instead. I am hearing so many tones in my ears now that it’s becoming very distracting.
Oh wait – I guess that was head & ear talk!
Signed up for the Level 2 improv glass. Then I think I am done. I never really want to do improv for improv sake but I enjoyed the level 1 so much I should try the advance I think.
Benny and I are definitely having some trouble getting out of bed today.
This last week I found out about a very unexpected death from cancer and it hurt my heart so much. One of the situations where it’s someone you don’t talk to much but think about frequently and always expect to be there where they are supposed to be. Does that make sense?
And then one of those lovely ladies from what I call Cancer Camp, died. It’s too much.
Okay – and on that sad noteI Things to do today, so UP!